Doubting The Work of Jesus In Your Life

About 2 weeks ago now, I shared my testimony because I felt like that was what the Holy Spirit was calling me to do at that point. When I did it, I didn’t think I was ready. In fact, I don’t think I was ever going to be ready. If He had left me, I would give my thanks in private and then, go about my life grateful acknowledging that God has saved me but never sharing the details behind it.

When I did that though, another burden fell on me. I began to have thoughts like, “What if what I struggled with comes back?” or “What if something happens in the future and I find myself back in that space?” I don’t know if this makes me less of a child of God for having these thoughts but as The Word says, “We take every thought captive that sets itself up against the knowledge of God and make it obedient to Christ,” (2 Corinthians 10:5). That was what I did.

For the few days that those thoughts kept arising in my mind, I made sure not to entertain it for long and I gave the thought back to Christ. Fast forward a few days and I can’t remember how but the Holy Spirit put the verse in my heart, “Whoever the Lord sets free is free indeed,” and of course, I found myself crying―these days I’m an absolute cry baby for Jesus―because it showed me He sees me, He hears me and He also cares.

I had heard that Bible verse before. I had heard it growing up in church and even in fellowship but it hadn’t been significant to me until when I doubted the goodness of God over my life. When things like that happen, I’m always like, “Why God, why me? Why do you choose to see and hear me?” It’s a conversation for another time though.

John 8:36[NIV] says, “So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed.” The Son here referring to Jesus Christ. The more I meditated on that verse, the more I realized that this wasn’t a struggle that was unique to me. Many other believers have one time or another struggled with speaking out when God has asked them to because they’re scared of the old. They wonder ‘What if I go back there and now, all these people are here to see me fall?’

In the context of the Bible verse earlier, Jesus was talking about how anyone who sins is a slave to sin and a slave has no permanent position in the house but if the Son (aka Himself) sets you free, you will be free indeed since a son has a permanent place in the house forever (John 8:34-38).

Jesus wouldn’t have told us that if He didn’t recognize that a lot of people had become slaves to sin (including doubt). For those few days, I had become a slave to doubt. Doubt that I was indeed saved and doubt that I could do what God was asking of me. And it made me see that a lot of us might be in that headspace.

It could be your salvation that you doubt. It could be whatever vice God saved you from a while ago but you’re in a state of doubt because you don’t trust yourself not to succumb back into that space. And you know what, you’re right. You cannot trust yourself. But you know who you can trust? God.

This was the realization I came to. No matter how it seemed or what it looked like, I couldn’t trust that something would happen and I would be back in that space. I couldn’t trust that one day by my own strength, I wouldn’t have certain thoughts any more but I could trust God. I could believe Him when He said to me, “Whoever the Lord sets free is free indeed.”

I could believe that Jesus had set me free and I was free indeed because He had said it and He never lies. Has He ever lied to you? As I couldn’t trust myself, I could trust in God’s Sovereignty. And isn’t that what we are called to do? To trust Him in all our ways and submit to Him everything we do?

Today, I want to uplift you. Sometimes, you might doubt the gift God has freely given to you―your salvation but sit on John 8:36 and don’t let it depart from you. Know that if God has set you free, you are free indeed and His Word is that which you can believe. That which you should believe. Jesus also tells us that we should live by EVERY Word that comes out of the mouth of God (Matthew 4:4) so if Jesus has said it, we are to live by it.’

Much Love,

Uche 🤍

PS: This is a short one today but I don’t think much needs to be said on this topic and I pray that this blesses you in the way it blessed me… even more. Amen!

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Have you ever doubted that God truly saved you from something?

• Yes, I have 🥺
• No, I haven't 😊